Promised I would try to keep this up to date...epic fail. So much is going on nowadays. I don't even have the time to breathe in the smoggy fuck surrounding my life. At least I have my one little air freshener...and she means more to me than anything else I could ever possibly be attached to. We got a rough patch though. Not between us, but our actions. They are so volatile right now, and I have so much fear that only a spark is needed to ignite this all into a piling of steaming shit whose aroma will linger through the rest of our own existence. I don't want that. All I want is this basic, childlike desire for everything to just be ok. That kind of feeling when you're hiding in your room while parents rage against each other and you just want it all to stop. 5 minutes of peace, please. The same feeling, only internally. Why can't we just zero out the scale of our souls, and let them rest...